Terrible!

It really feels terrible when someone you knew, just totally forgets about you and ignores your messages as if you were a stranger.

Totally lost contacts with the BHB channel mates and they totally ignore me. Sigh.. I know, people come into and out of your life, it's normal. However, it still hurts.

Retribution! I did that to Joel too! I just suddenly, totally ignored him and he stills calls or sms me nowadays. The reason I ignore him is actually very sucky!! He tells me too many things and I couldn't handle them. I can't help him and sometimes I felt so helpless. Then I just stop answering his calls or replying his smses altogether. I'm sure he feels lost and maybe hurt too.

Sigh.. A sucky friend I am. Pot calling the kettle black! =(

Phew!

Lian ahh Lian.. You ahh.. Tell me wrong deadline for NTU application. Luckily went to call their admission office yesterday. Took 1/2 day off to go certify results slips and went NTU to apply.

Just want to tell those who missed the application!! Call the admission office today, ask them if you can apply cos you missed the date. Yesterday can, but not sure about today if they still allow it! Anyway good luck!

No idea

I know it's been some time since I last blog but the thing is, I have no idea what to blog about. Can't be blogging the happenings of my everyday can I? Who care's whether I'd eaten lunch or not or who wanna know if I have work to do? Keke..

I started blogging 2 years ago, then all I blog about is my daily happenings, such as go where, do what etc. If you have been my loyal reader since the beginning which I doubt anyone is, you'll notice that my style of blogging had gradually changed. Becoming more mature I would say?

Anyway I know that my entries may not be interesting as compared to others and my command in english is especially terrible, I find it a good way to at least express myself for I'm lousy at that verbally..

There was a time when I used my blog to express my feelings for another when I knew that he had been reading my blog. However that ended when I asked him how he felt towards me. It was just a one sided thing I guess. How silly of me to make a fool out of myself. Now I'm actually glad that he did it, I don't think we are suitable for each other and I wouldn't have been together with Fab. I wouldn't have found out that such a wonderfull man is by my side all this while. Keke.. Getting a little bit mushy right. =)

The thing is, how many of you think that blogging is just a simple diary or a way to express yourself, reflect on your feelings towards life, the country, the world etc?

Memories..

Have you ever felt a pinch of jealousy when you found out that either an ex boyfriend or an ex crush is attached now? Well I do and I hate that feeling.

I have good cause not to feel so, especially when I have a boyfriend who dotes on me terribly and he is the world to me.

However I still can't rid of such feelings. Is this normal or is it a sign that I cannot let go? I admit that I still hold fond memories of them and of course those sad ones as well, but I had thought of them lesser now, even to the extent of none. But why does it still hurts..

PS: I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!