Sigh.. My Dad just commented on my figure, saying I'm looking like my Mum. Which means I'm growing fatter! Argh.. Why not? When nowadays I'm kinda lazy to go jogging and I've been eating so much! Sigh.. Realized something too, in the Wong family, all females are rounded, none are slim except maybe when they are kids. That's bad, really bad... =(

Today, Zirong they all go to JB again. We had confirm going there for our next EIC! Nice place! Much better than the Sijori Resort which costed a bomb! Really like the swimming pool, there's a slide! The room looks big and comfy! There's a bowling alley, a gaming room, a very beautiful golf course! Woah! Say so much also no use, might not be able to enjoy them, will be busy I reckon! This time we are going to do a good job! Yeah! Must believe that we can do it!!

Did you read the Strait Times today? About the german cannibal?! Wah I'm really digusted and felt like puking after reading. How can he eat his own kind? It is sinful! Can't imagine it at all!

Chingay! Did anyone go watch it? I watched it on TV. Actually I wanted to go just that I'm lazy to ask people to go with me. Though my Mum did say she wouldn't mind to go with me but I don't feel like going with her. Lolx.. So at the end we didn't go. When watching it on the TV, me Dad's really sacarstic! He kept on commenting on how it was then, now really no creativity and stuff like that.. Was a little annoyed with him. Haha!

Wow.. Can you believe it? My Mum actually had relented that I'm old enough to handle a relationship meaning she lets me to have a bf? However... I don't have any tartget now lah.. Just feel that she finally trust me to make my own judgement.. Whoopie!

Today during NSA workshop damn funny.. Joking about and stuff.. Laugh till I no voice and out of breath! Haha.. We were thinking to merge group with Amelia they all.. And we wanted them to call themselves Noodles so can match our Fishball! Fishball Noodles! Haha.. We also joked about Seok Hong's hair, his hair really looked like a hat! Lolx... Damn funny!!! Today's really fun! I stained my shirt while eating yong tao fu! Argh.. However the stain looked like a pattern till not much people actually notice that it was a stain! Heheh.. Today took the same bus with Matthew and Gim Hong from Wushu, Simon and Junius form NPOB. Woah just realised something, I know alot of siao3 di4 di4.. Haha.. No use le.. No potential.. lolx..

Boring.. Now waiting for the next class to start. Think the presentation I did just now sux.. I was still nervous but I think not as nervous as I used to be lor.. Hopefully I can overcome this fear of speaking soon.. =)

Sigh.. I realised that nowadays I really have nothing to blog about. Life just like the same day in and out, think that I'm existing now.

Nowadays all I think about is love.. Darn.. Am I really deprived from it or am I just in love with love now? Just did a silly quiz and it said that I a black heart! Haha.. Sad.. Never see him online nowadays.. Hrmm block me ahh? Heck care lah..

Just now I saw the video for EIC 2003. Very nice, better than the first one we saw. At least now we not marketing Adam Khoo and can understand what the camps all about. However.. Maybe I'm just jealous or something Sharon was being featured and I wasn't feeling good about it. How come Mr Tang and Mr Lam both also like Sharon? Argh.. Sour grapes! Damn!

Today was dreading to wake up, finally forced myself to get out of my bed at 8am. Then wash up and prepared to go to school but Lian called and told me the change of plans. At the end I have to slack around till 12pm before I head to school.

We did a quiz and I found out I was actually a right brain, not left brain. According to the description, I'm not suitable to be a administration director. No wonder... Haha.. Lame excuse right. Think the quiz not accurate cause some stuff really wierd one.. Anyway it's kind of fun to do the quiz and find out which brain do you used most.

My gan1 die1 picked me up after school. We had dinner at our house and lao1 yu2 sheng1! Ate really full, shit how to jian3 fei2 when I keep on eating none stop? =(

Haha! I've won money!! Playing black jack at Gwen's place. At first I was losing money all the way and Gwen's Dad was laughing through out because of my bad luck.. I shouldn't have worn black! Then after dinner,Woah! Change of luck! At the end, I've won $10! Yeah! I started out with $5 and ended with $15!! Not bad huh? But Lian still the big winner, she won the most!

Saw Emily's Don le, not bad but a little short lor.. Lolx.. He seemed to be shorter than me. I was joking when I ask Emily to introduce guys to me. Haha.. She asked me what kind I like.. She thought I like guys who are cool. Hrmm.. I like guys taller than me and not those skinny type, a bit ba ba one.. Then he must be considerate, understanding, cute, sweet, have good sense of humor and definitely not childish. I like guys who speak eloquently. Think that's it! Shit man! I'm thinking of him again. Damn! Idiot!!

Sigh.. Tomorrow got to go to school early, have to meet for the project!

Last night was told that they will come my house for lunch, about 6 of them. Then who knows, prepared everything and cooked and now only 3 coming. What's their problem?! My Mum was rushing to cook with me helping and stuf, then I called to ask what time they coming. Then they told me only 3 of them coming. Nevermind, not long later they gave me a call to say they are at Yvette's house?! What the...... Really not feeling that happy lor! Next time, if they coming again we won't prepare any food for them le.. How can like that? So irresponsible!

Stoning!! Now so call discussion but we aren't productive at all.. Silence.............. Darn!! Sian.. Can't even decide what we doing.. Raining now, feeling cold and hungry and sleepy..

Bored to death today.. Was at my Aunt's house for almost half the day.. Nothing to do except watch TV or go up to my cousin's room and see the guys play PS or surf the net.. Extremely bored man..

Tomorrow meeting the group to do project. Wah sian.. 9am in the morning! Still haven't read up yet, later go there unprepared kena Alex they all say then not good le. Hrmm..

Why? Why all my biao3 jie3s or tang2 jie3s' boyfriends all looked so yandao?! Curious.. Will my future boyfriend be good looking too? I wonder... Sigh really jealous man.. Sigh when I thought I found him, but he isn't the one.. Then.. Argh.. That time he smsed me really giving me false hopes.. Sian.. Nevermind lah.. I still got school and stuff to keep me occupied.. Yup! Anyway I don't think I've got time to think about having a boyfriend and stuff like that.. Right? Single is good, at least I have more freedom and time to myself.. =) He will be out of my mind by end of this month I swear!

Today bai4 nian2, went to like 5 places. First my Grandma's then my father's office. After that went to my Grandaunt's house, later to my Uncle's place. Last went to my another Grandaunt's house.. Tomorrow, we'll be going to my Uncles and Aunts' houses. I have a really big family and my father's the youngest so we have to visit the all of them! Though it's really troublesome, but I like meeting my relatives as most of them we only get to meet during CNY. I realised something, in my family, there is no one who looks ugly. Most of them are chio bus or yan daos. Hehe.. I'm one of the soso one lah, I don't think I look ugly, do I?

Hrmm.. Lazy to do my e tutorials leh.. Sigh.. Lucky still got a few days before deadline. Hee!

Guess what? He smsed me today! First time since that day he rejected me. Though just a simple message 'Happy new year!' Sigh.. I finally never get to think about him so much le, then he suddenly smsed me.. What the... I know still can be friends but I still haven't really got over it yet mah! Like this, he expect what?! Don't know what he thinking... Spare a thought for me mah.. I feel a little happy.. Then angry.. Why am I still thinking of him?! Idiota!!!

Hrmm.. Yesterday had my reunion dinner, Steamboat! Today cleaned up the house and stuff like that, all the last minute preparation for the CNY. Lalala... Sianz.. Now must shou3 ye4! Can't go to bed till after midnight.. Yawnz... =0

Freddie is really very cute! Yesterday during class we played a little game. We had to choose 1 out of 3 to see which is wrong about a person. He made a mistake and had 2 wrong ones and 1 correct one. I chose that he's been to prison as the wrong one then he told me I was wrong.. Meaning he's been to the prison. Later that day, I met him at the bus stop and he reassured me that he had never been to the prison.. Haha... Cute right?

Last night we attended my Laogong's wedding dinner. He damn funny, keep on addressing me as his Laopo. Watsup with him?! Lolx.. He never called me Laopo before until today.. I realised something, I've been calling Mama's sons, Kor Kor, Kor Kor and Laogong, and another guy who's sort of my childhood playmat Boy Boy my whole life. I didn't know their names at all.. Haha... Woah.. Boy Boy looks very different! He changed alot, considering the last time I saw him like more than 10 years back. He's tall and quite smart looking. We never get to talk to each other as we sat at different tables. Hehe.. The bride's really very beautiful and the ballroom looked fantastic. Woah.. I feel like getting married! Now that my Laogong's married, when's my turn?! Haha.. 8 more years to go.. A really long way..

I realized that I'm a very lucky girl. I have so many people who teng2 wo3! My Daddy, Mummy, Papa, Mama, Gan1 die1 and my grandparents.. Haha.. I've got like 3 fathers and 2 mothers.. Heez... Lucky me..

Today's weather damn warm.. Went to my uncle's house and had breakie with them. Later we did some errands and went home. Sian.. Just feel like sleeping only.. Haha..

Doing some research now.. Hrm.. Not much people online now.. Abit sian..

Today met up with Mr Tang, Yen and Zirong at IE office. Later we picked Mr Chia up and headed towards the causeway. We went to JB. Checked out the resorts.. We all prefered the first resort we went. The scenery is very good, it was a really high class resort and the service there is excellent. The last one, one word, yuck! The service extremely bad.. Woah.. CMI lah.. And somemore more expensive than the first one..

Just now, guess who called me? It's Zane! It's been a really long time since we contact each other. He sak if I want to work for 1 day tomorrow at Thomson Plaza. I don't think I can make it.. We chatted for a while. Can't imagine it, Brendon's still with Fiona!? What the.... Extremely long... Think they are planning to get married too.. Congratz! Haha..

Saw Dingxin just now, he was representing NYP for the Table Tennis Competition held at our school. Play a little basketball before going to Wushu. I was dilly dallying after wushu, hoping someone would go home with me. It was like 8:30pm when I finally decide to go home alone.

Horrible incident! I alighted the bus and then there's this fat guy wearing uniform whom alighted too. I was standing at the bus stop and I smelt someone smoking. I turned to see who's smoking and this guy's smoking saw me looking at him. Then later he made a fuss about it when he talked to another guy about passive smoker. Who knows!! We took the same bus again. When I was going down the bus, he flexed his fingers till the sound of the bones cracking was heard in front of me! Can you imagine?! He seem to want to beat me up! Watsup with him? Lucky nothing really happened.. Phew..

Wah! My headaching!! Brain cells dead.. Don't feel like writing the meeting minutes at all. Sigh! Haven't write finished yet.. Going home to finish it later.. Now wushu! Bye!

Tired! I need my sleep.. I very weak hor? Sleep less a few hours then feel so tired le. Sigh.. Today rushed to school to do the preparations. At the end, I pon 2 lectures in the morning. Ha! Bad right? I think our booth look really attractive, now the problem is with how we approach the people there. I feel that those at the booth don't really know what's going on at YEN so they gave some wrong information to the students too. sigh..

Wah I saw that guy whom like me today at the CCA Fiesta, I really very paiseh don't dare to look at him, cause I dao him for a very long time le. Matthew can't recognise me again, wah sad sia.. I really got the common look? Why everywhere I go, someone would say that there's a girl whom look like me.. =(

After school, we had a meeting. I feel inferior again, why do I always feel so lousy leh? Something's wrong with me? I really agree that we don't have the team spirit. Everyone's doing their own stuff and to say the truth we don't really know each other at all and we only meet during meeting. It feels so 'business' whenever I think of them. Hee..

He's online now.. Don't dare to go chat with him. Just wondering what he's nick meant? 'you 'll be there where my life ends and you were there when it began' Probably refering to some girls whom he's interested now. Well who cares right? That girl is not me for sure... Oh well.. It's over le, shouldn't think about it too much lah...

Now in school at the block 72 exam hall.. Waiting for the rest to arrive from IE office.. Damn warm! Air condition not working, windows closed, door closed and smelly too.. WTH! Irritating lor.. The estates ahh, never really prepare the booth for us, we got to set them up ourselves and now the rest getting the stuff for the decor of the booth..

Today lesson starts at 1pm, a bit sian.. Nothing to do till then..

Friends keep on telling me that I still have Joel.. What the... He's just a friend. If have chance, long ago already together.. I know him for almost 2 years already... But still never felt that way towards him.. At least not yet.. Did you see what he wrote for my testimonial, actually I kind of please with what he wrote, make me sound so good. Haha!

Wah I so fast talking about other guys le, NO! I'm not fickle minded! It's just... Nevermind...

Hello.. I think I'm ok le.. Think Adam Khoo's state of mind and disassociate really helps.. Hehe.. I'm making myself busy so that I think of him lesser.. Life still have to go on, who never got rejected before? Though I really disagree with what his last reply said.. Nevermind.. No point feeling so upset and down when he doesn't feel the same way, right? I've thought a lot over the weekend, I didn't regret asking him, now heartbroken better than later. So this is it! No point looking back, like the saying ming1 tian1 hui4 gen4 hao3. =)

I just collected my notebook this morning, paid $21!! A bit xin1 tong4, but at least the virus is removed.

Really? What kind of Spanish name should I have? Hrmm.. Not Jacinta! I dislike this name immensely, I don't really like Jacinth either, it's given by someone whom I hate! But I can't change it, everyone's use to calling me Jacinth at home. This is why I prefer people calling me Si Ying or Jac.

I just don't like my Aunt when she ask me to go her house. She's always asking me to go over so I can clean up her house. I must have spoilt her when I always agree to help her. Darn.. Everyweek, "Si Ying ahh.. You next Saturday free? No? Sunday? Going out? What time end?" WTH!! Kaoz.. Even though she always buys me things but also not like that right? My room's a mess, I didn't even tidy my room and must go her place to clean hers.. What kind of world is this? Ridiculous!!

This Saturday going to JB, have a look at the hotel and place.. Hopefully, I won't be so blur for the next EIC and be more prepare then before. Yeah!

Here I am in Mr Tang's office again.. Don't know why, suddenly tears just filled my eyes.. But I'm NOT crying..

There! I've done it! Scare him away le.. That's it! I knew it, he's avoiding me le. Haha! I only ask if he likes me, not as if I want him to be my bf lor. Sigh.. Over! No reply from him but I think I know the answer le. Since he didn't reply, maybe he don't know how to tell me he never felt anything for me except just normal friends. It's ok I guess, well.. I'm NOT going to cry! I will never cry! Let go.. Forget about him... Move on... I know!!!

Later go NTU. I now really no mood to go! This morning actually wanted to go for a jog, but then no mood too. So I just slack on my bed.. WTH!!!!!! Really, 2 outcomes, either you regret asking him or you regret not asking him.. So that's it! I regret! Argh...... Feel like dying.. Miserable.. I'll be fine soon.. Don't worry about me!

Oh man... I really can't get over yesterday's incident! Darn.. I still feel soo stupid! Haiya!! Idiot! Sian.. How now? Guess no more chance to meet le..

Sigh.. IDIOT!!!!!!!!!! WTH!!!!! I still cannot let go leh.. People said I should give up on him and move on.. Still Like him mah, where so easy forget?! But now like.. How to say? We seldom talk le, not as often as before. Cause I used to find him to chat but now without my notebook, I didn't find him. Maybe it's only one sided lor.. I also don't know le.. Yesterday, his voice like.. hrmm how to explain.. Haiya!! Why is this happening lor!!!! I still don't know how he felt about me!! I don't dare to ask, don't know how to ask.. Maybe we can only be friends.. Sian... why do I like him leh? Can anyone answer me? He ask me this before I also don't know.. Blind lor.. (If you see this, what do you think about me? If you don't like me then tell me. Let me si3 xin1.)

If there's a prize for rotten judgement,
I guess I've already won that!
No man is worth the aggravation,
that's ancient history, been there, done that!
lalala... This is a song lah.. From Hercules

Brr.. Now feeling extremely cold.. In YEN office, using this super slow PC, Pentium 2?!!! No choice lah, no notebook means no medium to surf the net from home. Haha I like Mr Tang's secretary. Now got people come repair the air conditioner. Don't know what's wrong with it, except that it's freaking cold.

Heh.. We finally settled the grouping issue. Yeah! I'm with Alex, Zhihao, Lelian and Fanny. I feel sorry for the rest, if you know what I mean.. The HeTouchy's group.. Anyway yeah!! We settled it!

LESSON LEARNT : Never Assume!!!

I feel soo DUMB!!! Call me Dumb Girl!! Argh.. Remember never assume!! Cause assume makes an ASS out of U and ME!!!! He assume I go at 3 and I assume that he's around. Dumb! Damn embarrassing sia! Not because people looking at some idiot waiting outside the office but because I'm waiting for nobody!! He like still sleeping lor.. Sigh.. I also don't know what to say le.. Just hope that Veronica won't tell the rest about it cause, he'll be made fun of I think.. So looking forward to today but sigh.. At the end never get to see him. Anyway I don't really want the gums lah, just you know.. Haiya! I too quick with my words le, told him no need the gums. Actually I end school at 1pm tomorrow, still can go over to get it lah.. Suan4 le...

This morning I just send my notebook to the hospital! Not too sure when I getting it back. Damn! Spent $21 for reformatting the notebook. 4/5 of my weekly allowance.. Broke ahh!!

This Saturday going to NTU!! Got Wushu Display, but not I perform lah.. My skills still not there yet. I also don't know why I want to go lor, I'm actually not in the mood to go. But I agreed to go at the end for no reasons.. Haha..

Wah sian.. My notebook kena VIRUS!!! What Trojan.bookmarker!!! Sigh.. I'm lost now.. Don't know what to do.. Should I bring it to MEL? or Blk 72? Or what? Chua call me to leave it alone.. How could I? Later the whole notebook crash how? All my important files inside lor.. And I don't have blank CDRs, I can't back them up yet.. Sian.. What the hell.. Why soo suey!!!!! ARGHHHHHH............... Help! Help! Feel like crying ahh... =(

Classes were ok today.. I'm gonna have to find a spanish name, one of my homework.. Haha.. Anyway I think I go home le.. Feel so sorry for my notebook.. Sigh..

Good morning! Yeah first day of school! I'm in schoo now, at innohub.. Hope I'm not bothering Mr Tang, cause I'm now in his office slacking. Haha.. Came to school extremely early when lesson actually start at 1pm on Mondays. Hehe.. Why come to school so early? Heh.. Mr Tang wants me to give him the stuff we discussed on last Friday. I didn't do it during the weekend as I was really sick then, so I came to school to do it. Anyway I'm done le.. Later I also need to go find Angie regarding the admin stuff. I think I a bit too gan chiong.. Haha.. I have like hours before lessons start.

I just wondering how would the tutors be for my Spanish class and Psychology of Creativity later.. Hope that they would be interesting and fun tutors, therefore the classes wouldn't be boring. I only know that Samuel also attend the same class for Psychology of Creativity with me. How about Spanish? Who's in the same class? Sigh..

Wah hate it! The school's wireless connection is lousy! Idiot firewall! Can't even chat using MSN except ICQ.. Irritating lor.. What's the problem? It's easier using MSN to chat leh..

Shit I think I should go to bed soon... Feeling extremely sucky, cause I feeling extremely dizzy now.. Damn, really sick le.. My brother say I think too much of him le so I fall sick.. He finds me extremely weak nowadays. As if lor, think of him till I fall sick? Think xiang1 si1 bing4 ahh.. Anjing Ngepet!

Wah I really very xing4 fu2 leh.. All my friends all very concern about me cause I'm sick. Really very touched by their little gestures.. Very nice and sweet of them..

Sian man.. Now really nothing to do and guess what? I really no voice now!! Can't even talk, I have icq Samuel and Fabian when I talk to them.. Sigh... boa4 ying4 ahh... Eat soo much heaty food for what?! Darn.. I can't talk at all!! Si Ying now extremely sian now.. She like nothing to do now lor.. I also no voice how to talk to her leh?

Sigh.. Know what I told Jailani? I told him that there's nothing between us and since school reopening soon, I wouldn't be thinking of him that much le(hopefully).. And he said," I'll remind you of him." Wah.. What the hell!! I also don't know what I'm gonna do le.. Maybe I only imagined what he felt for me, I don't know.. Anyway he said he didn't read my blog le, so I guess he won't be able to see all these, right? So now I can anyhow blog le!! Why do I like him le? I also dont' know.. Cause of his shyness at the beginning that got me curious about him? Or what? Feel soo shitty now!! Idiot old man!

Sigh.. Now at innohub! Staying overnight tonight, kena locked inside le.. Haha! Tomorrow got training at YC, sian abit dreading it leh.. Lalala.. Mr Tang treated us dinner just now! The food delicious but hor I think that tomorrow I confirm no voice le! I now still eating potato chips etc. Hahaha!! No voice ahhh..

2 days le.. never contact him..

Yesterday morning I went to my Grandma’s place to help her tidy up her house (be maid again... Lolx!) I wasn’t feeling too well so my brother did most of the work.

Later that day, Lian called me. We decided to go out, but I was feeling a bit like a light bulb lah.. I asked him if wants to come out, but it was getting late and he haven’t call so I thought I go home le. But they say I would be counting down on the bus, so they asked me to go have a drink with them. We went to Mos Burger. I shouldn’t have eaten the fried shrimp and fries. I’m really not feeling too well now. Blocked nose, no voice, muscle aching, coughing etc. Argh! Damn irritating.. This is the time to practice signing but no one at home understands signing. I have to whisper to them. Tiring!

I’m practically sleeping the whole day today.. Tomorrow staying over at school, Saturday have training at YC. Sunday nothing on and Monday school reopen le! Next week only needs to attend lectures and I don’t need to go to school on Wednesday!

I’m actually looking forward to start school. I feel very motivated to do well for my studies now. Hehe.. I like this sem’s timetable. Unlike last sem, we have most of our lectures before lunch time, meaning I won’t feel sleepy. Most days we end school at 4pm. However I don’t think it matters much to me lah, because I got CCA which mostly ends at like 7pm. I only dread one thing now, grouping. If like last sem again, everyone quarrel over who should be in whose group, damn childish!

Oh man.. That guy really abit scary leh.. Did I send him wrong message, leading him on? I told him so clearly le.. I only saw him once lor and I don't remember how he looks at all, until I saw his picture at friendster.. Sigh..