Wednesday, June 29, 2005

New Job

Yeah! Got a new job, will be ending this old one on Friday. Going to start work next Monday, I'm looking forward to it. Pay higher, more working hours. =)

Sigh! I can't get anyone to go to SMU with me. So sad.. Celeste, Emily and Meiqi going on Tuesday, how am I to take off on the 2nd day of work? Madeline's going on Monday, that's even worse.. On my 1st day of work?
No chance to discuss with anyone about school. :( No chance to ask "What modules do you want to bid for? Which time slot? Want to meet for the 1st class?" Etc etc etc.. No choice, I'll got to go alone then..

Suddenly feel so alone again. A new school, no friends.. My friends are all at difference course, different campus. A new environment, new faces.. Wonder how I'll fare

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Name: Jacinth

I was surfing the net just now looking for the meaning of my name. My name is rather uncommon among people and many people find it hard to pronounce. This is why most people don't know me by Jacinth only Jac or Si Ying. I've decided to go search and understand more about my name. The only knowledge I have is that Jacinth is a precious stone and is related to Hyacinth.

Below I have summarized my findings:

Jacinth

Pronounced: JAY-sinth, JAS-inth (However mine's JA-sinth)
Origin: Greek
Gender: Female
Meaning: Attractive, Beautiful. Derived from the name of a precious stone. This name is also related to the Greek purple flower, hyacinth.
Nicknames: Jacy, Jacey, Jacie (My nicknames are Jac, Jacky and Jaco)
Other names associated with Jacinth are: Giacinta(f), Giacinto(m), Hyacinth(f & m), Hyacintha(f), Hyacinthe(f), Jacek(m), Jacenda(f), Jacenta(f), Jacenty(m), Jacey(f), Jacie(f), Jacinda(f), Jacindia(f), Jacinna(f), Jacinta(f), Jacintha(f), Jacinthe(f), Jacinthia, Jacinto(m), Jacy(f), Jacynth(f)





I have search some bible study website and found this article. It gives a more in dept meaning to the name Jacinth. BTW I not a Christian, I'm a free thinker. (Highlight below to view the article)

Jacinth
Jacinth, from the Greek hyacinth, a flower native to The Mediterranean region, is a name given to a variety of zircon, a precious stone of that flower's color (under oxidizing heat treatment, zircon can range in color from reddish-blue or deep-purple to yellow).

References to jacinth are found in both the Old and New Testaments, first as one of the precious stones in the high priest's breastpiece (shown in the illustration) and second as one of those in the magnificent foundations of the New Jerusalem - the earlier usage being a foreshadlow of the latter. The greatest natural concentrations of Jacinth have been found in Russia, Canada, Pakistan and Norway.

Jacinth
As with so many things introduced in earlier Bible History, the precious stones in the breastpiece of the High Priest (see Levites and Aaron) were symbolic of what was, and is, to come.

"And you shall make a breastpiece of judgment, in skilled work; like the work of the ephod you shall make it; of gold, blue and purple and scarlet stuff, and fine twined linen shall you make it. It shall be square and double, a span its length and a span its breadth. And you shall set in it four rows of stones. A row of sardius, topaz, and carbuncle shall be the first row; and the second row an emerald, a sapphire, and a diamond; and the third row a jacinth, an agate, and an amethyst; and the fourth row a beryl, an onyx, and a jasper; they shall be set in gold filigree. There shall be twelve stones with their names according to the names of the sons of Israel; they shall be like signets, each engraved with its name, for the twelve tribes." (Exodus 28:15-21 RSV)

Jacinth will be one of the precious stones in the foundations of the New Jerusalem, on earth (note also in Revelation 21:21, included below, that the famous "Pearly Gates" will also be on earth):

"And in the Spirit he carried me away to a great, high mountain, and showed me the holy city Jerusalem coming down out of heaven from God, having the glory of God, its radiance like a most rare jewel, like a jasper, clear as crystal. It had a great, high wall, with twelve gates, and at the gates twelve angels, and on the gates the names of the twelve tribes of the sons of Israel were inscribed; on the east three gates, on the north three gates, on the south three gates, and on the west three gates. And the wall of the city had twelve foundations, and on them the twelve names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb."

"And he who talked to me had a measuring rod of gold to measure the city and its gates and walls. The city lies foursquare, its length the same as its breadth; and he measured the city with his rod, twelve thousand stadia; its length and breadth and height are equal. He also measured its wall, a hundred and forty-four cubits by a man's measure, that is, an angel's. The wall was built of jasper, while the city was pure gold, clear as glass. The foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with every jewel; the first was jasper, the second sapphire, the third agate, the fourth emerald, the fifth onyx, the sixth carnelian, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth, the twelfth amethyst. And the twelve gates were twelve pearls, each of the gates made of a single pearl, and the street of the city was pure gold, transparent as glass." (Revelation 21:10-21 RSV)

Monday, June 20, 2005

Sucky

I've been thinking since yesterday, I feel like quitting this job and get another one. It can be really pathetic, earning only $100++ a month. They can't even schedule me to work more even when I requested them, as there is only a limit of people they need and there are like 4 part timers. If I were to work full time, they have no need to work already.. This sux big time.

Yesterday was Father's day however we celebrated my cousin's birthday instead. The same happens every year, I just didn't like to hang out with this side of the family as the way they treat me, always makes me feel inferior and they always make fun of me. Though I know they are joking but it just didn't feel alright at all. =( Bleah! This side of the family, always treat me and my brother like some maid or something. Only we get called to clean up the house, only we get to help with preparations for cooking. The others just wait for us to get things done.

I just really wonder what's up with mother. After school ended, I say if I can rest for awhile before going to work at my Godfather's clients place, as I wasn't sure if any of the university will accept. She say no problem, looking after me for a few months don't mean anything, since she's been doing so for the past 20 years. Then during that time, I went out almost everyday but seriously I was only shopping for prom. She got angry at me for going out and not finding a job. So I went to look for one and took a little longer as I was looking for the distance from home to work. She complained that I was too choosy. Then finally I found a job, she said I'm stupid as I need to buy uniform and I signed a contract. She wants to find a part time job, I helped to ask, she complain that the distance is too far.. I mentioned I wish to get married by 27 and that next time if I were to have kids, I want to look after them, maybe I'll work part time or work from home. She ask me why I go university?

What does she wants from me? Fine! I'll work for my education, I don't need her to support me! As long as I have $100 for my eating and transportation, I can survive (I've been doing that since poly, only $100 allowance a month), the rest I'll be able to save to pay my school fees after the study loan!

When people got offered by any university, usually people will be happy for them. But my relatives? Why don't you go work first, get the company to sponsor you. Or work a few years, earn enough money, go overseas to further your studies. Go sign on to any government work.. All those really discouraging words, so I'm really wrong to pursue my studies. So I should work first. So I should be a teacher or police.. Then even if I get a job not to my liking, not to my passion, it's ok as money is more important. I wonder if someday I managed to have a high paying work and I quit just to be a dolphin trainer, will they puke blood?


So it is wrong to pursue my dreams, it is wrong to be myself. I should be someone everyone wants me to be. Suddenly I just feel like dying, there's really nothing in this world that is worth my presence.. Hmm.. What if they say I wasted their money all these years. Maybe I should start earn money to repay my parents then go die?

Friday, June 17, 2005

The guy who loves you...

I got this The guy who loves you message from Friendster and I found it quite interesting. However not everything applies at all.

The guy who loves you can't tell you the reason why he loves you. All you knows that is in his eyes, you are the only one. True.. When I asked him that he just can't give me an answer, I too can't answer him when he asked me.

The guy who loves you always make you mad, but he never know what stupid things he did, as everything he's done, is for your own good. Not really..

The guy who loves you seldom praise you , but in his heart, you are the best, only he knows it. Hmm.. I don't really know about this..

The guy who loves you will scold or complain if you didn't reply his message, because he cares. He never scolds me for that but he'll get worried, thinking something bad must have happened to me.

The guy who loves you only drop his tears in front of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart, the heart which beats for you. He never cried in front of me, though I know he cried when I'm not around. Maybe he just doesn't want to show me that he's vulnerable..

The guy who loves you will remember every word you said, even it's accidentally and he will use those words at the nick of time. Not applicable, have yet to know.

The guy who loves you will not give any promise that easily, because he doesn't want to break the promise, he wants you to believe him and wants to give you the happiest and safest life everafter. I think it really depends on the kind of promise.

The guy who loves you always tell you not to think too much, because he already planned it for you, he wants to give you the best in life, he wants to give you a suprise, believe him that he can do it. I have no doubt about this..

The guy who loves you may not be able to remember special occasion like some kind of anniversary,but he does know that, every second he lives, he's loving you, no matter what day it is. Hehe.. I may be the one being forgetful..

The guy who loves you won't say "I love you" that easily because everything he's done for you is showing that he loves you, but will only say the 3 words during special situation as he doesn't want you to misunderstand, he wants you to know that he loves you. This is totally wrong.

The guy who really loves you will feel that sometimes somethings will have to tell only once because he thought that you already understand him, if say so much, he will feel that there's nothing you will cherish. Hmm..

The guy who loves you will go to airport to fetch you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you Darling like what you have expected. However he will carry your luggage and ask you "Why have you lost so much weight in 2 days?" Have yet to happen..

The guy who loves you will listen quietly to you when you are mad and when you finished, he will say, "You've got class tomorrow, sleep earlier." Nope, he will advise me after listening.

The guy who loves you doesn't know whether to call you when you are angry, but he will sent a message to you after few hours. If you ask him why he call that late, he will say, "When you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only really mean to you." Not really..

The guy who loves you always call you little girl but everytime he wants to make a big decision, he will first want to hear your advice. Think so..

The guy who loves you doesn't like girlish toys like teddybear, but he will always put the bear you gave him at his bed. He doesn't like them and I didn't give him any..

The guy who loves you will apologize when you quarrell, althought you are the one who's in the wrong. He will send a message to you with "Dear.. It is your fault and you know it." Totally true..

When the guy who loves you misses you, he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait for you stupidly under your apartment.What he never know is that he bought you daisy in stead of roses, but doesn't matter because in his heart that's rose. NA.. Anyway I love daisy!

The guy who loves you seldom say sweet nothings, but you know his kisses already transfer his passions to you. Untrue for the first part and true for the second one.

If the guy who loves you can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, because he knew, if he keep on missing you, he couldn't get anything done. Hmm.. He will try to find ways to see me.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

BWL FAREWELL DINNER!!!!!!

Farewell Dinner
Date: Friday, 2 December 2005
Time: 6.30 pm to 10.30 pm
Venue: Orchid Country Club, Grand Ballroom
Ticket Price: $48.00Food: Halal Chinese

Ex-students and past teachers are invited to register your names with to get the tickets early.

Please drop an email at
bwss_farewell_dinner@yahoo.com.sg or download the invitation form (PDF)

Those going please let me know, we go register together.. Thank you! =)

For more info:
http://schools.moe.edu.sg/bwss/

Missing him..

It's been 4 days.. I am really missed him lots!

Glad to have the 2 bears and another lamb to be by my side when I go to bed. They are always sleeping with me at night. The lamb he got me when he went to NZ for holiday, the Forever Friends bear he got me on our 4th monthsary and the DIY bear he got me for Christmas. The most prized is still the Forever Friends bear, it meant a lot to me.

When I can't sleep, there is the set of comics he bought me, which I have read dozens of times. I still haven't got use to the phoneless night, we used to chat for at least an hour before bed and often I just doze off to sleep with him talking at the end of the line. Haha..

When waiting for the bus going or leaving work, his smses is there to keep me company. Last night I started copying the sms as my hp have limited space and I can't save all of them.. I had deleted some in the past due to the space limit which I really regret. I'll just continue to copy them tonight before I go to bed.

I really looked forward to his call every night even though it just a 5 minute one. Just hearing his voice, feels good..

Friday, June 10, 2005

Enlistment Day

Yesterday was Fab's enlistment day.

The BTMC looked really nice, from afar we were wondering if that was a resort. When we reached there the enlistees went for their briefing while the family members go for a tour around the school. Living conditions there is not bad, they even have a mess room? Something like a receational room filled with billiard table, soccer table, TV, DVD player etc. Wah life for them looks quite relaxing..

We were brought to a shed where the officer? not sure who he is, showed us the items that the NS men will get and their rationing when they are out training. By the looks of the meals, I really wonder if they will ever get full but maybe not as those are only for display.

We went to the Auditorium where they show us a video and someone did a presentation. A very interesting sight to see when the enlistees were giving their pledge.

They were all shouting:
I (name), NIRC number (_______)..........
........

It's a funny sight when they say "I" so loud and together but when they say their name, you could only hear loud mumberings, same goes to their NRIC number. Lolx.. They even sang the national anthem, really loudly that they sang too fast.. I think they couldn't hear that they were faster than the tape.

Dinner was provided, but they only allow the enlistees to leave the auditorium row by row, after that followed by the family and friends, same thing row by row too.. Which took a really long time as we are at the back rows.. When we came out of the auditorium, we found out that the enlistees where standing single file on both sides of the path waiting for their family. There were very little enlistees by the time we got out, so Fab must be standing there for quite some time.

By the time we get to the food house, we were the last few who got the food. We need to queue up for food like some catering. The portions are really big, luckily I manage to tell the person to give me lesser rice. We had butter rice with fried fish, hot dog, whip potato, bun, soup and dessert. The food is not bad. This whole thing looked like the enlistees are going for a summer camp in a resort. However we wouldn't know for sure.

Fab called me at night, he sounded sick and not himself. I'm worried for him.

Deep down, I still feel that NS is good for the guys, though it wastes 2 years of the guys time. It allows them to grow up and be a stronger and better person in terms of physical and emotional.
It's really a period where boy transform into man. Looking forward to Fab's first booking on the 23rd June. Wonder how he'll look like, slimmer and bald? Haha..