Today during HRM, there was a video clip about penguins and the other kinds of birds. I think I'm a chicken strategy! All talk but no work! Sigh.. Need to become a blue bird strategy, be cheerful!

How come when my birthday is coming yet I still don't feel any excitement? I don't seem to be really really looking forward to it. Sigh.. =(

Hmm.. Just changed my blogskin again, cause I realised that there are people using the same skin for their blog. Actually this is almost same as the old one except the colour had changed and the pictures too. The layout and stuff is still same as the old one.

Hehe.. It's been a long time since I'd played pool. After school went to Bt Timah Plaza with Sam and Fab. They went to collect their winnings. After that we went to Mambo, actually I didn't want to play as I didn't play pool for a very long time already. I've beaten Sam, Terrence and Fab! Whoopie!!! Taiko lah! No skill one, anyhow play also can win. Lolx..

Hmm.. Just now Joel called me. He really had me worried. When he called I was online and my Dad's watching the TV, then when I realised that he was crying, I went offline and went to the kitchen but it's still too noisy so I went to the backyard. I really don't know what to do except listen to him tell me his sorrows. He is having home sick, he missed his family, especially his parents a lot. He was in an empty bunk when he called me. If he's somewhere outside, I might change and go find him. I really sux at consoling people I guess. Sigh! At least he told me about it, it's better than bottling everything inside his heart. =)

Wah yesterday watched channel U, I was really touched watching the wedding between Darren Lim and Evelyn Tan. I feel like getting married too!!! WTH.. Next time when it's my turn I also want a similar one. Wah.. It's so romantic! So damn touching too, Darren Lim was teary when Evelyn Tan was being lead in by her father. When will it be my turn?! Ahhh....

Yesterday went to my Grandma's house and I'd gotten 3 ang paos!! Yeah!! 2 were for the Lunar New Year, my relatives forgot to give us as we didn't get to see each other. Then 1 was from my Grandma, it's for my Birthday!! I'm getting older. Sigh! I really wished I could be 16 forever. Lolx.. =D

Now at Fab's house with Sam. Sam just taught us about Java. Now the guys are playing golf. His goldfish very cute and one of them is extremely big, even bigger than ours.

The web service thingy was alright. Nothing fantastic about it. After that I got home, took a nap then prepare the food and had a bath before heading to school. Si Ying called me to go school accompany her but when I got there, there isn't anyone at IE office at all. WTH...

Oh yah.. Wanna apologise to Fab! Sorry!!! Say your mother pretty and you... Paiseh ahh! As usual talk without thinking. =p

The BBQ, first time I did the BBQing instead of waiting for the food to arrive. One thing good about BBQing is that you won't eat that much so can jian3 fei2! Yeah!! Sigh we thought there would be 30 people but who knows only about 10+ came, but still ok lah. Wah really not fated can't take any photo with Fab one, always some really ugly photos, then have to delete.=(

Actually wanted my Dad to pick me up but abit paiseh so went home with Jonathan and parseep?(don't know how to spell his name) Then Jonathan thought us some tricks on the bus.. Hmm.. Maybe next time can try out on you people, wait till I master it first. Wah sleepy le.. -_- zZZzz....

Eh don't know tomorrow going to meet up with Sam and Fab for the Java thingy or not.. Need to study for my Spanish test!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!

Hrmm.. Today after school, had a briefing for tomorrow's event. Got to be in school by 8:30am, must wake up early!! Must give Lian morning call too. After the briefing, went to library as I'm still early to meet up with Christine and no one is in school to accompany me. I continued to read the book I read the last time I went there, finally finished reading it. Borrowed 2 books, later can read them. =) Then went to meet Christine, she's passing me some stuff regarding the money and website thingy. Hehe.. Don't think I will be going for the next few training, unitl my breathing recovers.

When it's over, my Godfather came to pick me up! He sent me home and went out to buy crab!! Yeah!! Had chili crabs for my dinner! Luckily never go out with Fab they all or I'll miss such delicacies! Lol.. =D Hmm.. I really dislike to remove the crab's shell, just now my Godfather help me remove them. Usually my Mum will do that for me, but she's not sitting by my side today. If no one helping me to remove the shell I wouldn't touch the crab at all. Very lazy right?! My Godfather always remove the seeds and skin before I eat the grapes. Hmm.. Maybe I'm spoilt! My Godfather love me too much le! Next time for my future pathner, must find someone like my Godfather. He's very sweet and gentle. He never flare his temper in front of us, always so patient and loving but sometimes he also very strict lah. Sad to say but he is even better than my Dad. Lolx.. However I love both of you!! =)

Having presentation just now, actually really sucky.. Don't know how come I couldn't pronounce authorization. Sad man..

Hungry again, think I'm going to put on lots of weight. Sad case, been eating every time but didn't go for training. Argh... Feeling damn shitty.

Later going to have meeting for the creative project. Hopefully we can 'get rid' of some people. Didn't bring my colour pencils. How? Don't how we design the board liao.. =(

Need to clean up my room!! Mum's scolded me about it this morning. Lazy mah.. What to do?! Sian...

Hmm.. Yesterday was really brief with my blog. I went to see a acupuncture & tonic centre. Firstly was acupuncture, I nearly freak out, luckily I was lying on my tummy and the staff acupunturing my back so I didn't see what she did. My mom was on the next bed and she was also being acupunctured. It hurts abit when I laugh cause we were joking with each other. About 15 minutes later, the staff took the needles away and started pouring medical oil on my back which she later massage my back. I was like woah so xuang3 ah! Then!!! Without warning, she starts to ba2 guan4. Pain like hell!! Cause my skin was being suck into the bottle. I tense up when she put 4 guan4s on my back. Sigh now I have 4 circular bruises. After that the Doctor came in and starts to fix my bones. Woah.. There's a lot of cracking sounds and everyone in the same room was shocked, cause really very loud. This must have caused my difficulty in breathing. I feel better now! Though there is still some difficulty in breathing at least I don't feel as bad as before. My Mum's going to bring me back for check up when I finish my medicine.

Today was nothing really happened. Had a meeting for YEN, it's suppose to be everyone from year 1 and 2 to must come for the meeting but at the end only like 6 year 1 came. Pathetic right? Then we discussed about the BBQ this saturday. That's all! Oh yah.. I recieve the email today abt the meeting after training for wushu! Then I didn't check my email until now! I wasn't feeling too good to go for training (Doctor instructed me not to go). What I wanna say is how can send the email in the morning and expect us to be for meeting on the same day? This is really ridiculous! Today's meeting is to introduce us the new committee into the club and we need to discuss some stuff with Mr Kwan. Sian.. How come like this one?!

I went to see the doctor today. Terrible incident! Was being acupunctured and being ba2 guan4. Unbearable.. Now my back have a few circular bruises and 1 particularly very pain. Ouch! Doctor said my bone yi2 wei4, and he help me fixed it. He was kinda shocked, it's serious. Sigh.. Now body feeling tired and aching, but my breathing not bad le.. But still not that good.

Today's a very warm day. Was in my Mum's room when she asked me what she should do to the chicken for today's dinner. Then I suggested we BBQ, since she isn't in the mood to cook. So I accompanied my Mum to Shop & Save to buy the chicken wings, sausages, corn, sweet potatoe etc.

When we started BBQing it's still ok. Then later i had a little conflict with my parents and I left with a puff! Is it wrong that I don't know how to see if a chicken is cooked! I still haven't eaten the corn and sweet potato yet! WTH!!!! =(

Still can't breath properly. yesterday my neck hurts when I took in deep breaths and now my chest hurts a little when I do that. Samuel said he'll bring me to the doctor if I haven't gone to the doctor by tomorrow. Well well.. I'm going to see the doctor on Wednesday. So don't worry too much, I'm fine lah. =)

Argh.. Not enough sleep today! Went for the Social Ettiquete course this morning, then did project. Keep on falling asleep when doing my research. =P Finally BTH le, so smsed Joel to cancle the dinner. He was ok with it, think because his dad's back in Singapore.

Took a short nap just now, feeling not too bad now. Except for the difficulties in breathing everything is alright. No problem at all! I'm as fit as a cow! =)

Hrm.. I felt I have some things on mind today. Had a talk with a friend today, she told me about her relationship with her boyfriend. Woah.. I really am glad that I'm single now. Her bf's a sucky person, still not yet grown up, so insensitive. I think that he's really a lousy guy.. This is why I'm always not 100% committed to a guy. How would I know if he's really the one for me? Sigh I guess I'll be single for the rest of my life. 10 years later if I'm still single, you might find me at er2 mei2 Shan1. I might be a nun there. Lolx..

I've always thought that having a boyfriend to love me is the most wonderful thing but now I think that being attached might not always mean so. Being attached means stepping into my own grave, I'm really glad that I'm single now.

Why am I always talking about this stuff, guess because of the issue about women not getting married and not having babies. I'm kinda worried for my future now. Sigh.. Some silly worries which might not be a problem at all. =P

Wah just now when I reach my house, I couldn't open the gate at all. The lock's spoilt and I have to climb over the gate. Damn paiseh! My neighbours keep looking at me when I climbed. I felt like finding a hole to hide my head. Sigh at the end never go see doctor, cause too late le. Still can't breath properly. Shitty!

Oh well.. Sorry if I offended anyone with my last blog.. Maybe I over did it a bit, I was just really pissed off last night.

IAP.. November! Sigh.. Don't really want it to be in November. At least I have something good out of it. 2 semesters won't be able to see CPU. Yeah! lolx..

Have to go for Social etiquette on Saturday! =( Sian..

1. By now you would have received email informing you to attend the Social Etiquette Workshop this Saturday. Yes, it's meant for you. You are nominated to attend. It was recommended that you know how to portrait a positive image in the new office; how you should behave in the new office; Or what you should say and how you should say it?

2. Some of you would have received email informing you of your IAP placements. If you haven't received any email, you will be sent for the Nov IAP.

3. For those who are going out in May, I know you are anxious now. Many of you have called me. Don't worry, our LOs will brief you what is expected of you. We won't let you 'drown' out there! ;-) Wait for the briefing session that will be held at a later date.

There's this Web Services student mentor. I feel like applying for it but I also think I might not be able to handle it. There's UBC, FYP and Stuff..

BIT will organise a .NET Web Services Competition for the secondary school students jointly with Microsoft. We are currently looking for 20 students to be the participants' mentor. You are expected to motivate the students from the secondary school appointed to you. Some of the incentives of being a student mentor are:

- .NET course sponsored by Microsoft. (it is in the thousands)
- CCA points
- Attractive prizes for winning team (could be Xbox - not confirmed yet)

In case you wonder why have you been chosen to be in this list. It is strictly based on merit, personality and another factor is (for those who are going on IAP) your IAP is scheduled by the school to be in Nov '04.

I really dislike something about my classmates. Sad to say I really can't consider my classmates as my friends at all. I don't feel that they are friends to me at all. I always felt I'm the odd one out.

It was Zhihao's birthday and we were having dinner at Fish and Co. While eating, I feel a little alone. There were some talking but it's like you want to try this? Try that? There's not chit chatting at all.. Well maybe it's just me. I'm too sensitive. I felt that I am not close with them at all. Feels so very alone. Sigh... =(

After dinner, the cake was cut and birthday song was sang. It was not bad, the boys from the other table sang with us too. Then Zhihao was being sarboed. Jeremy and Alex wiped cream on his face.

Zhihao paid the bill. Now the thing that really pissed me off is this. Lelian kept on want to pay Zhihao. She's paying Fanny's share too. Then Zhihao refused to accept. Later Alex ask all of us to take our money out to pay him. Zhihao still didn't want it but the guys grabbed him and took his wallet out and put the cash in. Why am I pissed off?! It's not that I'm very cheapskate. I find that if Zhihao wanted to treat us then let him. I mean how many times will he get to treat us. It's not as if he treats us everytime, then this way we will feel paiseh. If I am to treat people on my birthday, I wouldn't want people to force to pay me back lor! What it this?! I happily treating my friends dinner and they refuse my treat? Don't give me face at all lor! I never do understand them at all.

Another thing is Sam and I was late due to the game we had earlier at IE Office. The whole group of people waiting for the 2 of us to eat. We were late for 1 hour lor?! I really felt that they should have ordered the food first. Did they think of those who are really hungry? What if they gastric pain? Because of the 2 of us and make the rest go hungry? They never wei4 da4 ju2 zhao2 xiang3 at all.

This always happens, whenever our group meets, Amelia's group will also meet to for project. Then sometimes we finished early and wanted to have lunch. Then this Alex would want to wait for the next group to finish their work and go have lunch together. But I really don't understand why must we wait lor. All of us feeling really hungry and it's like 2pm le and we haven't even had our breakfast. Why must everyone go hungry just because the other group haven't finish? Okie waiting for them is alright, the real problem is when they are done, we took like 1/2 hour to decide where to go. Then another 20 minutes ride to the place and another 1/2 hour to decide what to eat. Really! By the time we decided where to eat and stuff, I'm no longer hungry le. This is really bad for the gastric lor! I'm always really pissed off because of that, then the rest of the day I'll be extremely quiet.

Oh well.. I don't care if you think that I'm over reacting or very selfish and stuff. But I really felt this way and I think that I'm not wrong at all. Next time if that ever happens again, I think I might just leave them. I really don't mind being called shao3 xing4.

Now I really doubt I want to have my birthday celebrated with Amelia. I really don't like the atmosphere when people are being so polite to each other and stuff. I don't really feel happy at all. I rather people remember my birthday and sms me, send a card or give me a call to greet me happy birthday. I feel that it's the thought that counts, sincerity too. This little thought will really brighten up my day, no need present at all, no need dinner nor celebrations, just a greeting will do. If there's a dinner I would rather spend it with a few really close pals than a group of not so close friends. Recently I never really had a birthday that I feel very happy and excited for, it was only in the past when I'm in kindergarten or primary school. I'm starting to feel that there is nothing special on birthdays at all.

Hrm.. Not feeling well today so never go for HRM lecture today. Never go training too. Headache! Stomach ache! Don't know why.. =(

Should I go for the OB AGM or YEN event? Whiich one? Both also need to spend money. I also don't know which one more worth the while. Sigh.. Headache!!

Today my brother go Mt Ophir, so it means that I can sleep in the living room tonight! Yeah! I really love sleeping in the living room. I can watch TV!! Sleep on the sofa! So comfortable! =D

Today Wushu AGM, not any better than the YEN's one. Really.. Only like 10+ people present. And the Alumli keep on throwing questions to our President. Lots of things happened, complaining etc. The food they catered can't be finished so Kok Boon went to ta3 bao1 the food.

After AGM, this ex-student of NP but current member of Wushu wanted to drive Christine to search for the carpark where she wants to shoot for her production. He drove a lorry, actually they decide to drop me somewhere to take a bus, but at the end I went to accompany them find the site. Christine want an old and multi storey carpark, the plot is a gun fight scene.

We went to UIC building at Shenton Way, then People's Park. This building call wat Yang zi or something, the place where old men go see RA movies? The carpark very weird, at the top 3 levels of the carpark, there's people who occupied them and it looks as if someone is living there. There's a frigde, shelfs, lots of potted plants. Really unusual. Not a bad site for her shooting except it's very troublesome to get permission. We found this security guard who calls us to go to another place. Then the guard there say it's not their department, asked us to go back there.. These 2 old men seems to be pushing away responsiblities. They want to do their job anything not within their job scope, don't bother them. So maybe this site she have to cross out. After that we went exploring, went to the apartments which used to be for the CIDs, climbed up a hill see here see there.. After that Christine and I went home by bus. Haha..

Sigh.. Finally Friday! Looking forward to watch William Hung later at 10pm.

Horrible day! Today really felt extremely shitty. I get bu4 xuang3 so easily, having mood swing! Suddenly feeling jealous, mad, then later lonely.. What's wrong with me? Feel like a misfit today! Do you guys have this kind of feeling before? I hate feeling this way! Terrible feeling! Feel so distant from everyone, can't seem to join in the conversation. Maybe it's just me. Argh... =(

Tomorrow is my Godfather's birthday!! Hee.. Don't know if he's coming down to our house or not? Hope he do come over! =) I can't go his place. Though the incident is long time over le but I still dislike her alot. Don't understand how come she live on this world? I do missed the times when I call her at night, tell her about my schoolwork and stuff. But well.. She destroyed everything. It's gone and never can come back..

Wushu AGM is tomorrow too! I'm selected to be the treasurer I think. Another load on my back. Hopefully I can manage
everything. Luckily it's not secretary! Lolx.. I wonder if this AGM is any different from the YEN AGM? Can do some comparison and learn from them too.. =)

This morning in the 167 bus, I was sitting at the seat where the opposite seat is facing me. Then suddenly, the opposite passengers looked at me and point to me leg. I bend down to see an unidentified bug on my feet!! Ouch.. It bite me I think, very quickly I flicked the bug away. Then the guy passenger opposite me stand up and stepped on the bug. The bug was not moving and I thought that it was dead. But not long later the bug started crawling again. And everyone who saw the bug start staring to see where it was crawling to. Haha..

I got the small little wound on my feet. Idiot bug!! Bite me!! I wonder how it got into the bus and how it picked me out of the many passenger as a victim?! Damn!!

Having a 2 hour break now. Was doing the array tutorial a while ago. I still don't understand how an array work in Java. VB.NET is much easier to understand.

Sigh later meeting, I think I've even forgotten that I was the Admin Director le. Really no fire right now... Feel like running away. Argh..

So I've started the HRM report. I written 1 page le but I think I covered some of Lian's part, Zhihao's part and Alex's part. Really.. Am I on the right track? Sigh.. A little bit more and I'm sure I can finish it by tomorrow! Yeah!!!

A few days ago, my friend confided her feelings to me about her bf. Woah I'm glad that I'm single! I can't imagine myself giving in to my bf though I think that I'm right. I can't imagine crying due to the fight. Woah.. That's too much for me.. Lolx.. Singlehood's the best!! I really don't think I can commit in such feelings right now. =) Too foreign liao.. =P

Just had my BSD presentation. Woah! I improved!! I didn't stammer when I present. Lalala.. Great ain't it?!

Yesterday training, long time no train le. Really tiring and was having problems with my breathing again. Sigh.. I don't want to go to the doctor lah!!!

Still have HRM report to rush.. Argh!!! Sad.. Haven't start it yet. Having meeting tomorrow, don't know what is it about this time?! Sigh

Think having PMS or something. Been feeling really grumpy and not in the mood since yesterday and today. Argh.... Please bear with me if you find me annoying or distant etc..

Sigh! Saw him online just now.. As usual not suprising, he dao me. Anyway just curious thought he say he going NS last week, how come he so fast book out? Maybe it's his brothers who accidently signed in.. I don't know.. But who really cares lah..

Wah this week start school le. Sigh.. Feeling about you3 qi4 wu2 li4.. Hrmm.. Feel like running away again! WTH.. Always feeling like this.. Lost again... Aimless, no direction.. =(

Haha.. What do you guys think of my new skin? I'm a romantic person.. Lolx..

Sigh.. Got to do project tomorrow morning. Sianz..

Today stayed at home the whole day so nothing much to blog about. My uncle decided to keep the puppy at the end so I didn't get to see it but my father said it looked like the dog we used to have but it's a male one this time. Aww.. I want!!!

Hrmm.. Had lunch at Pizza Hut with Lian and Amalia. Couldn't finish the food we ordered was kinda stuff to death. The service also like not too good. After lunch, I went to the toilet with Amelia. In the toilet I was queueing up and she was waiting for me. Then we started signing to each other, there was this CHIJ girl whom thought that we were HI people. Damn funny cause she gave us that look. Lolx..

Watch Butterfly Effect, not too bad but abit blur.. Actually don't understand what the movie is for. Some parts scary, some very funny, some very sad.. Also don't know how to describe lah.

The puppy didn't arrive today leh.. Don't know if my Uncle lying or not. Sigh...

Whoopie!! End le.. No more tests!!

My uncle's giving us a puppy!! Yeah! I would really love to!! However!! No one have the time to look after it, so my Dad's going to give the puppy to my another uncle. Anyway today my uncle will bring the puppy to my house first. But I'm not sure if I will get to see the puppy. Sigh..

Later not sure if meeting Melvin for lunch or not. He never contact me about it. Anyway later going to watch movie. Still don't know where yet.

Sigh.. After test and here I am at BLK 72 level 6 doing project discussion?! WTH...

After OM test today, went out for lunch with Lian and Amelia to Far East Plaza. We went to Ramen Ten(not too sure if this is the name), they are having a promotion, $5.90 on selected meals. Not too bad, but I shouldn't have added the chilli, I couldn't take it at all. Sux.. I'm not that good at eating spicey food. I was teary and my nose was running. Haha.. Unlike Lian and Amelia, chilli to them is no kick!

After which we went shopping in Far East. Got into a CD shop and well.. I can't curb my urge.. I bought David Tao's CD. Sigh.. Spend money again.. Wah.. Now listening to the CD! Damn nice!! Lolx.. Love it! Never regret taking th CD to the counter. =P

Haha.. I made a wish list to Lian and Amelia. I want a pencil case, a few CDRW and a mouse! Lalala.. No need to buy le, wait for my Birthday can le! Lolx.. Still got exactly 1 month, abit bu4 yao4 lian3 right? When Amelia's birthday is actually 2 days earlier than mine and she's not making any noise about getting her presents and here I am requesting them. Lolx.. I also want a digicam but that is too expensive le, maybe next time. ;-)

I really wanna thank Matthew! If not for him, I'll lose 10 marks! *Winkz* It's a secret.. Shh... I know you won't see this but thank you thank you!! =) Yeah! 1 more test to go!! BSD!! Then.. Finish le!! Wah..

Everyone's talking about GB everytime.. Sian.. Getting a little annoyed with it. First thing's first, I don't play it. I have no intention of playing it either, then again I might if I'm using broadband, but I'm not. Keke.. Secondly, I just knew it that if I get started I would definitly get addicted to it. So this is it! I'm not touching it! I'm banning GB on my laptop!

Realise that Sabe really very dao! I requested for him to add me to his friendster. But he never bothered to, still can be friends right? Afterall we were once close friends? Don't understand.. Some people... Argh.. Shit him!

Realised that I don't really know some of my friends in the friend list in frienster. There were some whom I don't remember who they are at all. Wah sad huh?!

Sian lazy study OM leh.. Tomorrow OM but started only like 2 lectures only.. 4 more to go.. Gonna pia le! Yeah!!!

Hungry... Lazy to cook leh.. Don't feel like going out to eat cause no one to accompany me. =P

Woah today was HRM common test. Not too bad.. Except for the case study question 1, I think I did fine for the test. *cross my fingers*

Funny thing happened today. We were either studying or doing IPT's E-tutorial in the library. Then Alex fell asleep, suddenly Jian Quan suggested that we leave him there. Everyone was hesitant till I took the lead and pack my stuff and left. Haha.. We moved to another table and he was still sleeping when we do so. Not long later, he woke up and smsed Zhihao where we are. Zhihao then replied that we are on our way home. Later he found us and said that he saw Lian when he woke up. Oh so too bad lor, it backfired! Sigh.. At least it was really funny when we moved away, cause everyone was afraid that he would wake up. Lolx..

I didn't go to Brenda's BBQ yesterday, felt a little disappointed. Didn't get to see a some old friends, cause studying for HRM. Maybe next time we can have an outing or something. =P Really missed those times we spent together!

Today's my Mom's birthday (same as Brenda!)!! After the 'revision' (wasn't really studying actually),Jeremy drove me home. He sent me to sweet secrets to buy a cake for my mother before he sent me home. He said that my house looked like a cottage. Haha.. Yah lor! Cute mah, blue roof, red gates with the grape vine and other plants. =) Got home and made a last minute ppt for my Mom. We had korean seafood doodles for dinner. Delicious... Hmmm.. The cake I bought was tiramisu, not too bad.=) Yum! Not too sweet, just nice! Hee.. Well it felt so good to see my Mom happy! =) Heez..

Wah.. Jeremy's driving skill is a little bit reckless. He overtook almost every car in his way. I also have nothing to say. He said the faster you drive the more impatient you get. I must agree with his case. He said I've never seen the worse yet. Phew.. Lucky!

Eh! My Laogong was on TV just now! Keke.. Ready Steady Go! Bryan Wong asked him for directions. =)

Sigh.. He's going NS this week. Well.. Must si3 xin1 le. Forget about him, move on! Mr Right will appear someday soon I reckon.. Yup! =)